I was recently banned from Daily Kos for posting a comment that contained a poorly and irresponsibly described traumatic story from my youth, when I was 13 years old, living in Queens, New York City. Up until recently, I refrained from telling people that I was the victim of a targeted ambush “Racist Hate Crime,” although I clearly was. I don’t like to describe myself as a “victim” … I don’t like to think of myself as “victim” I knew it was, when it happened, I just never wanted to become bitter, afraid, or filled with rage. The incident scarred me, in no small way, even though I came out of it, relatively physically unscathed, save for a minor bruise to my right cheek, but my psyche, however, was dealt a severe blow. I will attempt to explain, herein, a more responsible, respectful and clear version of the incident, and the role I personally played. RadioGirl posted a diary, discussing Racism, and within that diary, my comment was one of the prominent items she discussed.
She described my story as “chilling.” She was right.
This was I was 13/14 years old, when I was jumped by 5 black kids. Yes, it was an admittedly harsh story. My tone in telling it, was, fr om my perspective, “matter of fact”, or “raw” or “detached” … and this apparently unnerved certain members of that community.
I posted my comment on:
* Thu Jan 27, 2011 at 09:32:25 AM PST
Two days (48 hours) later, a slew of comments were posted in response, commencing on
Sat Jan 29, 2011 at 09:54:20 AM PST, 48 hours after my comment was posted. I did not actually see those responses until a week later, on Fri Feb 4, which was several days after I had been banned. I had no idea they were even there, which is why I never responded.
Mostly, because of my real life demands, not the least of which was the fact that Friday Jan 28 I was up all night with my 83 year old dad, who suffers from early stages of dementia, who had another “new” ailment, ending in the morning with me having to take him to the ER, yet again.