Hey guys –
So I understand that some of you are kind of worried about the GBCW that I posted on Dkos yesterday (well, early this morning), and I’ve had a few requests from DD folks to just delete that diary, take a break from The Kos, and then come back when I’m ready.
Yeah. I’m not going to do that. Here’s why:
When I deleted last night’s rant, it was really just the final straw for me. I cried a lot but, today, I don’t regret my decision at all. It was a good, solid decision for me to make, actually, and it frees me up to explore other ways that I can write without all the name-calling bullshit attached to it. I mean, I’d like to start posting here regularly, and maybe a few other places, too. And I’ll probably start up my own website at some point.
I’m 40, ya know? I’m too old for that kind of drama. I don’t want it anymore.
I do want to sincerely apologize for those Docudharma people who rec’d and/or tipped last night’s rant diary (the “stop defending him” one), since I deleted it. I didn’t want to delete it, but I felt that I had no choice. I think that many folks fell asleep and couldn’t unrec it. The comments were literally getting beyond ridiculous, and I don’t need that kind of stress. Shit, no one needs to be run out of town by an entire mob who hates your guts. I didn’t find the experience pleasant at all, because the mob was louder than the supporters and stuff. I was yelled down over and over again, and I found the experience really third grade. Frankly, it was fucking stupid.
The bottom line is that some people read into the diary/made assumptions of the diary, and probably just saw what they wanted to see. No amount of rationale or logic was going to talk them out of some kind of bizarre vendetta to get me to admit that I was wrong, I was stupid, I was divisive, etc. etc. Hell, they’re still arguing in the GBCW diary occasionally. And if you’re going to spend THAT much of your time hating on somebody else, I mean seriously, don’t you have an elsewhere to be?!
Besides, I don’t think the Dkos Management likes me much, anyway. I’d rather just write about things I’m interested in here, and at other websites, and go that way instead.
Please give me a few days to return e-mails and phone calls and such. This has been a huge (HUGE!) learning experience for me and I need a little time to lick my wounds and to process and stuff.
Oh, btw buhdy, an ex-Kossack friend of mine e-mailed me last night to let me know what a complete failure I was (heh) and she was absolutely convinced that you were brainwashing me. So let’s get started on that. 🙂
Love you guys! Thanks bunches for your support.
P.S. I’ll contact Angry Mouse about continuing to write diaries for SheKos, but I think I’d only be willing to do that if someone else is going to moderate the comments.