I’m really happy to be part of this writers’ alliance and the opportunity it affords to reconnect with some of my favorite bloggers. It feels good.
Feb 03 2011
Dec 24 2008
i am left with this one question: who are we?
cattle? feudal serfs? indentured servants? are we trapped? who’s in charge, anyway?
i only realize now that the real turn in my political perception happened after the Nov 2005 elections, when Democrats regained a slim majority in Congress. when i expected everything to happen. accountability. push-back at FISA, the Military Commissions Act, the Patriot Act, more oversight of the captains of industry and financial markets. i really thought, listening to the likes of Henry Waxman that the sane people, once again, had some meaningful influence over politics and policies.
what slowly began to dawn on me was that the people i thought would work to restore our country had sabotaging us all along.
so when i read Cheney on Wiretapping: “Congress said we could”
Nov 07 2008
it was like someone hit a bell and the clarity and simplicity of its sound keeps reverberating in my head.
experience is unconditional. how simple: that which happens to us happens.
what, then, are the mechanisms that condition our experience?
i’ve been thinking about this in the context, of say poking fun at Sarah Palin (she doesn’t seem to realize Africa is a continent).
Is it dismissive or disdainful when I label 59 million people who voted (a second time) for bush as stupid?
i wonder how our reactions to those of others might condition experience and the ensuing interactions among us. what am i filtering out that makes it near impossible for me to understand teaching creationism as science? it isn’t so much that i mind another view point, but come on. it is religion. not science. or is it?
Jul 25 2008
But don’t worry, I’m not insulted. I’d be the first one to tell you that I’m a terrible choice for hostessing Writing in the Raw. “No batter” indeed…
And although I’ve had months to ponder the concept, I have nothing to say, and even less inclination to do so. There hasn’t been a reasonable, coherent, or relevant thought in my head for quite some time now. It’s been lovely.
Jun 04 2008
hey! a quick update and reminder for the next three months of writing in the raw
June 5th: Rusty1776
June 12th: Alma
June 19th: geomoo
June 26th: keirdubois
July 3rd: Rusty1776
July 10th: tahoebasha3
July 17th: dharmasyd
July 24th: 73rd virgin (maybe she’ll tell us what that means?)
July 31st: dharmasyd
August 7th: Rusty1776
August 14th: RiaDarlin’
August 20th: ek hornbeck
August 28th: srkp23
i’d like to prevail upon undercovercalico, Victory Coffee, RiaD, and Shaharazade for September. ucc said she needs to see her work schedule before committing to date. so if the others could commit without a definite date until i know ucc’s avail, that would be great.
9/11 falls on a thursday this year… so perhaps srkpy, as a new yorker, would like that spot.
if you are on the schedule, let me know you’ve read this and are still available.
May 30 2008
i really didn’t have time to write much. but i didn’t want anybody else to take this evening either. it is the last writing in the raw i’ll do from the states for a while, so even with a sparse essay, i think i’ll keep it for myself.
actually, it’s after 10pm as i start writing this. so it will be brief.
i’m packed. ready to go. exhausted. i’ll definitely blog from the airport tomorrow. i usually pay to get into the business lounge… for $45, you get fruit, cheese, coffee/tea, cookies, alcohol, tv, internet and a little desk from which you blog, and a comfy, quiet place to zone out for a few hours. premium wine/alcohol will cost you… hey Mu, might be one of the tips for your travel space.
okay. so that’s it.
well, and i’ll explain the title. just a bit.
getting on that plane tomorrow is amazing. there have been difficult times and yet, somehow, ej and i managed to hold onto to each other. over the phone. one-line e-mails. packages filled with small fetish items. a sense of humor. and well, we just get along. whenever i’m with him, by heart rate slows (unless you know…), i become very at ease. i smile a lot. i’m actually funny when i’m relaxed and not thinking about George Bush et al.
i sleep really well when i sleep with him. and when we get up, he has this funny little fresh face, squinty eyes and he’s smiling. maybe he looks a little like a baby bird or something. but it touches my heart. and it inspires me to get up and make coffee and cook breakfast.
we hold hands. we like the way each other smells. we think it’s funny when strangers fall down or break something in a store (but we don’t really want anybody to be really hurt). we love to go to museums. or find secret gardens. we like to wander in cities and towns. oh. and we both love madly medieval cathedrals and churches.
he likes to cook. i like to eat. he likes to complain. i like to sit, cross-legged, and listen and laugh at him and how he, in a very animated fashion, counts off each absurdity with his fingers.
i tell him everything has a shelf life. if we’re lucky, we’ll just die together, around 99 years old, in a plane crash or car accident. because i always see us together, old and beautiful. and i just know i’ll love him even more then… the two of us always walking, looking at the world together, my hand in the pocket of his old jacket.
this is one of those moments. when love wins.
May 09 2008
But regardless of that, I do believe in exclamation marks…and always have. They exist, I’ve seen them. And I’ve used them on many occasions! Even when they’re completely unwarranted!
More inappropriate punctuation, a dozen or so YouTube clips, and completely disjointed and non-sensical ‘semi-goodbye’ ramblings and thoughts from a complete fool who was drunk during the writing of a good part of this “thing” continue down below the “fold”, “jump”, or whatever you want to call it…
I bring the funk below, and depending on how fast you read; probably a bit more than 5 minutes –
May 02 2008
I am back in Flemington NJ. I left home when I was 31 to come here and live with my boyfriend. I think they thought I would never leave. And I never really wanted to leave. They were right about that. I liked being a child. I liked that I could always got to my mom’s house when I was sick. Or that I could always knock on my dad’s door for pasta at midnight after a wild night out…
No. I wasn’t looking for a mate. I was happy with a boyfriend.
Apr 25 2008
It’s a roller coaster ride. A tumbling act. We let words loose to persuade, describe, exclaim, defame, refute, convince, lie, confuse, or clarify.
We take stands, have platforms, craft mission statements and credos, construct constitutions, and write theses and treatises. We’re busy alright. Conquering worlds with words… and sometimes the horizons explode. Sometimes all light is lost…….
Mar 07 2008
I’m always at choice. It’s the only rule I can count on and I have come to accept with 42 years of reluctance. At this point in my life I choose to ponder Iraq daily or even hourly because the country that I have been born into has done things to Iraq that deeply conflict with the laws that my soul knows and understands. All aboard the Iraq War train. I wish I was standing on the platform though like a citizen of France maybe or a citizen of any other country that didn’t invade Iraq in my lifetime, and just taking all this in from that distance. I wish that lightening had not struck my train.