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Please note: patience is not one of my virtues…heh.

SPECIAL NOTE: a small announcement: I will be hosting another Party here Friday night… same bat time same bat channel.

I. Animal / Spirit Totems

So, in my last Friday Night Party essay (the DD Rummage Sale) I popped a Poll in there. It was almost an afterthought, certainly spur of the moment… but I felt inspired to add it there, not really knowing what kind of response it would get. What the heck, I thought.

The concept of Animal/Spirit totems is one of those trendy things that I happen to like a lot. Even though I usually hate trendy things. So… I figured I’d embellish & explore a bit more here, after the jump.

So what do you imagine is your totem?



White Crane, Heron, Egret  

A Heron and Egret totem teaches balance;

the ability to progress and evolve —

to walk into deeper waters without fear.

Oh yah, right! Sheesh, that could be anybody! lol

There’s a few more websites you’ll find if you have awesome google chops (like me!).

Here’s another one.

Heron’s slow, deliberate manner produces a ceremonial aura and displays the harmonious natural flow of being ourselves. Heron teaches us how to become comfortable in uncertain situations where we need to watch for an opportunity to arise and quickly grasp it.

This last one is most definitely the best I’ve found so far, really worth it to go exploring there. Although this description is specific for Great Blue Heron, I still connect with it a lot. For each featured Totem, they really go into a lot of detail, and I like the way it’s presented. You can find some very cool totem spirits to read about there…. Tiger, Dolphin, Jaguar, Owl, a whole bunch.

Blue Heron

Role: ~Peace Maker~

Lesson: Balance between relating and standing alone

Element: Air/Water

Wind: East ~Peace and Illumination~

Medicine: Uniqueness

Since I’m also a Pisces, just on the cusp of Aquarius, that fits with that too. I like this:

For the two-legged with Blue Heron as a Totem, there will be a desire to establish themselves as a unique and independent Being, often making these souls the revolutionaries that disrupt the status quo of society in order to elicit change and evolution.  Although this is a trait with many challenges, when operating from its Highest Vibration, Blue Heron souls teach the rest of us the value and importance of each individual contribution to the Whole.

This may sound a little silly, but… the concept of animal totems I loved when I was young, my introduction really to the concept was in Clan of the Cave Bear, book not movie. Seriously. Maybe I should go re-read it now.


this image has been my avatar in various places, since forever

For the longest time, I had this necklace. It was one of those fab finds in a little shop in Coconut Grove, Fla, I bought when I was about 15. I loved it. Style-wise, it was that kind of Asiany Art Deco design. The image was two cranes facing center & each other, with their wings encasing a vivid blue lapis lazuli stone in the center. Then three elongated triangle silver dangly thingies at the bottom.  Cobalt or indigo blue has always been my favorite color. Also. Sadly, it was stolen with some other items when my apartment was broken into many years ago. Ive never seen another like it. I miss it.

Shoulda just got the tattoo.



II. Shapeshifting…

As I observe the shifting zeitgeist of the sphere, my sense is that we are on the cusp. Of what, I have no idea.  The sounds of breathing, the desire to purge the stale old “science projects” in my fridge, lol, the need to make way for something altogether… new… different… is permeable.


It’s not entirely unlike the process of labor. Which, I’m sure you all know, is massively unique and different for every individual. Mine, in real life not metaphor, was… well, thats a different essay, heh. Long! It is most certainly a time when “be excellent to each other” should reign.


Birth, and death too, nowadays have gone a different way, but it should not be at the cost of losing the spirit ways. No reason we can’t have both.

So the role that Docudharma has served me, maybe it’s just me, has been… to coax and nurture it/me along. And to be the doula for this phase.

III.  Waiting…

Well here’s a little glimpse of Truth: I am a very impatient person! lol.

I am also, er, inconsistent and contradictory. Fickle some might say. ha! Yet loyal. See? an enigma. Just like you. heh.

Simmering… may actually be a more active verb, better here.. While I tend to feel fairly anxious, anxiety-prone, in transitional times, I am also aware of couple of other things that go along with it. I’ll go with the cooking metaphor: A good stew is made with intensive labor up front, but it wont be any good at all if not allowed to simmer…. to get the full seasoning and leeching of flavors. For me… {sigh} it’s not just Docudharma The Blog, it’s bigger than that. Much bigger.

I too, like buhdy’s last GOS comment, am tired of “trying to make lemonade out of marshmellows”. Although in my case, the marshmellow is often my own brain, lol… what I mean by that is… in political junkie terms, I am no wonk. This should come as no surprise to anyone!! And I also fluctuate a lot between ADD and hyperfocus. All that gets worse when I’m feeling uncertainty and anxiety. I get more and more verbose and less and less coherent! LOL. It all adds up to… I just can’t write anything comprehensible that gives expression to all my multitude of thoughts/feelings.


For now, for the time being… I just wanna make art.


{h/t to cosmic debris}

I mean, it’s either that or clean house… which would you choose?!

IV. Announcing…

So. Tomorrow evening, right here, live and in color, at Docudharma, I’ll be hosting another Party. Wear your best party hat. And your dancin’ shoes. Bring goodies. At that time, I will debut my very first ever Movie/Slideshow that I created, just for you. Man, I had a blast making it. There will be more to come, no doubt.

Til then.


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  1. during labor, groaning is perfectly acceptable.


  2. ….I was struck by the measured, seemingly slow flap of its wings, as if it was no hurry or perhaps the Heron experiences time in a qualitative different way.

    Anyway the phrase ‘timelessness’ popped into my head as I watched the bird fly into the distance.  

  3. its still your Birthday ya know, kitty! 🙂


    • Diane G on December 3, 2010 at 22:10

    until AFTER 7 🙁

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