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frantically felt for my throat….breathing sigh of relief
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I put my head down and closed my eyes
everything was real quite and clear
I ran over to him
it was warm and clear
thousands of stars
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shaking
and broken
pathetic and hurt
met you at the 24 hour grocery store
couldn’t afford the food
I remember
you forgot
empty boy
get out of my life
coddling my heart
vulnerable in love
scared in death
now you stop to get your game
conveniently left behind
I can see you[‘re breaking] too
I kiss you good bye out of habit this time
next time I’ll be stronger
it’s lonely without you here
collapsing slowly
all around me
I’m so scared
dreaming my teeth fell out
I’m falling
I’m drowning
there’s a house on the hill
blue pickup down the road
pink sky
leafless trees line the way
my friend
sunlight in her hair
smiles at me
grasping what little ledge is left
gasping ‘please don’t let me fall’
he gripped my arm in his sleep
I didn’t wake him
I watched him fall instead
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Lay quietly on the summer time bed. I twiddled your hair between my fingers while you traced out pictures on my skin. Writing me vulgar silly songs. I should have stayed. But I’m a fool. I can’t even remember the last time I was happy with you. And now I see you, and your eyes look pained and nervous. I didn’t do more harm than good though. Floating, swimming. Take my hand just don’t let go.
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lay in bed and wait
reading paper
says to me I’m ok if you die
it’s how it all plays out
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endless drifting
hesitant breathing
slight touch
waking, but barely
night is long
but only lately
smile when I closed my eyes
it all made sense
not so much anymore
intertwine your hand in mine
locked in shape
our bodies wait for moments grace
this too shall pass
running, blurring, faster, slowly
it’s all the same you know
up and down
fast and slow
it’s just the future
or the past? (or was it the past?)
it’s all the same
I feel you breathing
skin sensing the anticipation
where were you? where was I?
drifting to the void she said
drifting the void I guess.
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dreams = [(d/dx)poetry + sin(x)]
you don’t really write poetry, huh?
i love it, VC. all of it. the sound. the sway. the sense. the sentiment.
twiddled your hair… summer time bed… and absolutely love the image in my head from your last line::: drifting the void
your equation is as spectacular as the poem. v.v.v. clever.
bravo, my young and brave friend.
speechless!
You’ve got guts, there’s no getting around it! ;-}
O my dearling!
what images you evoke…
i can’t pick out which bit i like best…
the whole thing just blows me away
because i’ve been there too
drifting the void
wondering wtf am i doing here…
wouldn’t elsewhere be better
drifting the void….
makes a perfect definition of that space/time
Thank you Victory Coffee, you are upholding the finest traditions of WITR.
This was kind of hard to take though . . .
So I have a couple of questions:
1. How long did he fall?
2. Did he deserve to fall?
thank you for sharing….major snaps!!
of young love. v.v.v nice VC! You captured this perfectly. I’m almost cringing at the memory of my own lost loves. But those relationships made me stronger & I ended up with my soul mate after all. Our 10th wedding anniversary is coming soon – 04/26.
Thanks for sharing it, VC…
Things sting just a littlebitless as each day passes though, eh? But I still have occasional dreams about “The One that
I pushedgot away”, even though that was over a decade ago. And those dreams have actually increased lately for some reason; which is even more strange, because I usually hardly ever remember any of my dreams…But we’re really stupid when we’re 20-ish, right? I know I was…
I’ve always done things the hard way. But the lessons stick with me, I learn new ones all the time…
My own failures in this area are massive and epic, and would make a great book I think.
Hmmmm…
🙂
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In other news –
Yeah, so did I. At about 7:30 this evening…
I meant to just ‘rest my eyes’ for a bit, since I haven’t been able to sleep much this week. I ended up falling asleep for over two hours, instead…
I used to make fun of my mother when she did that, and then she’d deny that she fell asleep for those three or four hours that she was in fact sleeping. Now, I caught myself just doing that. Phone rang about 10 minutes after I got up, I answered it –
OMG, I just turned into my mother. I am soooo getting old…
Thank you for posting your poetry. That takes courage.
But perhaps not when your poetry is as lovely as this. 🙂