WARNING: This essay contains meta.
Change is a funny thing.
You can work for it, court it, try to nudge it along, seduce it, try to bludgeon it into existence, etc…
But when it comes right down to it, we have very little effect on the BIG changes of the world. They seem to come out of nowhere, and often seem to make no sense at the time. And, quite often, we do not even know they have in fact occurred until much later. We only know them by their effects, and then look back and seek causes for those effects.
When the big changes come, when a Change Quake happens that affects the whole world….ripples and aftershocks follow, spreading out from whatever the epicenter is this time….and spreading all around the world ….and into our lives.
Until the historical evidence is in all we can do as mere humans is try to understand it the best we can, analyze what is going on, see how it affects us, and try to adjust.
My analysis of what is going on in the world? I firmly believe we are in one of those times. In fact I believe we are in a veritable swarm of Change Quakes and ripples and after shocks. The main effect of which we can see at this time goes back to the utter fascism of Bush being replaced with….well whatever Obama turns out to be.
But those are just surface effects….signs, if you will…of a time that is without a doubt going to change all of our lives. The actual changes occur on a deeper level, one that we are ill-equipped to understand.
Change Quakes occur. They take time to ripple out, for the effects to be felt and sort themselves out…and then the results of those effects, the reactions cause change in and of themselves. Which of course, cause more changes and the chain reaction is on.
We may have had one of those effects of change here last night. Living in the hyper time of blogging, we feel the effects of such things relatively quickly, compared to most of the humans on the planet.
Last night newpioneer wrote a call out diary, and ek responded.
ek went off on some people over the issue that is closest to his heart, torture. Things got heated.
Since I was engaged in the irresponsible activity of sleeping. On The Bus took responsibility and acted. Perhaps precipitously, as she admits, but she did what she felt was right and cut of the comments. Leaving aside for the moment whether she did the right thing or not. A behind the scenes blog Admin war broke out. Essays were deleted and chaos ensued.
Was newpioneer wrong to write a call out diary? Was ek wrong to to respond in a heated fashion to being called out? Was On The Bus wrong to try to stop a blog war by taking a pretty radical admin decision to cut off comments?
Who was “excellent” and who wasn’t? I don’t think any one was truly excellent in this matter. I do think everyone was truly HUMAN though. We strive for excellence….and we ALWAYS fail, sooner or later. That is the one undeniable feature of being human….we WILL fail. All of us, no matter who we are, or who we would like to be.
I woke up this morning to a series of e-mails, the upshot of which is that ek has quit. At least for now.
Normally I would try to leave this sort of thing behind the scenes, but since peoples comments and diaries were deleted, I don’t think it is right NOT to say anything.
But I am also not going to go into detail or engage in gossip. What’s done is done. If a healing process can be initiated, it also will take place behind the scenes, as it should.
As this Change Quake at DD sorts itself out, the only advice I can give is to use this kind of dramatic change as a tool and a call for all of us to self-examine.
“Bad” shit happens, it is part of the process of change. A process that no one can stop.
The Changes that the planet is going through, and the even greater changes to come….and their effects on each and every one us…are going to challenge us all. There is just nothing we can do about that.
Though we like to THINK we have control, in a way we don’t. All we control is our own actions, and our actions are just 1/seven billionth of what happens here on earth.
And sometimes…and this is where compassion comes in…we can’t even control that. Situations WILL occur where we have to make decisions, are forced by events outside of our control to react. And we cannot always control our reactions, though it is a lovely goal.
Last night was ugly, and it hurts. I don’t really know what to do about it. Except to keep walking, keep working, and keep trying to make the best difference I know how to make. This Change Quake will affect DD, but none of us really knows how. Or how it will shake out.
But I do want to remind ALL of us who may be…hell who will be…tempted to judge one side or another or one posters actions or anothers…that NONE of us are perfect. That NONE of us are ALWAYS capable of being excellent to each other.
We are ALL fallible humans. That was proved again last night, and not by one person alone.
In my belief system (which I have no interest in imposing on anyone) when “bad” shit happens, it is to teach us. And so at this juncture, the only thing I really know to do is to ask all to try and learn.
And prepare for the Change Quakes to come, with that learning in hand.