I’ve posted before that I have been suicidal in the past (long ago). I’ve wrestled with depression and suicidality, both before and since.
Then there’s panic. I’ve posted that I was in the WTC when the planes hit. I didn’t panic then. But panic hits me in weird ways — I’m not afraid of flying, but I’ve been scared of the lines. In the blackout a few years ago, I was at the Bronx Zoo with my son, and got very lucky to get home in a cab…. walking 10 miles in the dark with a child is not something good. I’ve had more nightmares over that than over the 9/11 thing.
Now the stock market is crashing. OTOH, I’m OK. I won’t say what I’m worth, but I’ve got a job that doesn’t seem threatened, and even if I lost it, it would be a LONG time before I had no money. But some diaries lately (mostly over at big O) have me in a state.
And insomnia. I’ve got that, too. And have my whole life, never subsiding but getting better or worse at different times. I’ve received many recommendations like consulting a sleep physician, invest in a good mattress, and more. Later on, perhaps, for the latter part, I might purchase a mattress similar to best mattress New Zealand or ask my friends for their opinions.
At some point in our lives, we have all had sleepless nights; some more than others. But imagine having this problem every single night? Let me tell you from someone who knows. This isn’t fun. I know I should probably look into different treatment methods; I’ve heard that CBD works wonders for tackling those sleepless nights. I’ll have to look into the Best CBD Tinctures, but I wish I could just get to sleep normally without the help of anything.
You stare out the window and realize how peaceful it is and are mesmerized by the stars. As pretty as they are, all I want to do is sleep. I mean, how hard can it really be?
It’s actually harder than you think. I’ve tried everything you can think of, and as a result of nothing working, I have recently turned to my friend for help. He said that I should probably think about having a look into certain types of CBD products that helps with insomnia, to see if this could make a difference to my nighttime routine.
I guess I’ll just have to see how effective this will be then, won’t I? I just really hope it gets resolved soon. I just want to sleep!
I’ve been in therapy about half my life (not now).
I’m learning disabled, I’ve got a thing called nonverbal learning disabilities (more or less similar to Aspergers)
Not even sure why I am writing this. But I feel like I might get something out of it. Or maybe someone else will. I don’t know.