i want to stop feeling so damned bad

it’s like walking on a tight rope. without a net. it takes everything to put one foot in front of other and keep from falling.

it’s wobbly most of the time. it seems inevitable. i will fall into the canyon below.

we need to do something. this isn’t about stark (damn you damn you damn you for apologizing). it isn’t about the democrats or Chris fucking Dodd.

it suddenly hit me as strange that both armando and kos are cheering dodd. why is that? where did he come from all of a sudden?

not one of them… none of them are the answer. those politicians.

i am tired of being angry. disappointed. feeling bad. i want to do something about this.

no more letters. how do i spend my money to hobble these guys. how do we orchestrate it.